Women Changing Their World

Austin, Austin, AUSTIN!!! Is that you in the kitchen? (asked for the 4th time-from where I'm sitting in the living room which is right next to kitchen) Finally, a very small weak "yes" comes from the kitchen- sounded like a tiny squeaky mouse. Why aren't you answering me? "I didn't hear you"; he said. So do they hear and ignore on purpose or have the truly tuned out the sound of our voices? His hearing seems to come and go. He can hear me when I say "do you want to order a pizza?" or "do you need some money?" It's other times like when I say" can you clean the kitchen?" or things like pick up your clothes, take out the trash and did you feed the dog that he becomes stone deaf. I worry. I hope there is a cure for his sudden onsets of deafness.

Well my second post of 2011. How exciting! well...sorta. I know I can get back into the swing of things if I keep moving forward. Let's take a look at my life: Work: so, so. I enjoy my co-workers, I like my boss, what I do...not so much. The people make it fun for me. Social: I don't have many girlfriends. I don't know why either. I suppose because all of my time is divided between my two boys and my boyfriend. I would like to have my girl time. Relationship: Clint is a wonderful man. Our relationship is a long distance one (hour apart) but we do enjoy our time together and always look forward to seeing each other. I want to see us grow. Child Rearing: This is the toughest area of my life but also the most important one. Teenagers are very very very difficult. I strive to improve in this area every day. I love my two boys. I always say "One is my heart the other is my soul" :) Things I want to do more of: Exercise, outdoors stuff, home decor, girlfriend time, visi...

I have not written in quite some time. I'm not sure why. I believe I just ran out of things to say. Since this is a new year I thought I would pick it back up again. (I guess have some things to say now!) ALOT has happened from end of 2009 to today. I broke off a 4.5 year relationship, lost weight, gained it back, fell in love again and have so far lived through the trials and tribulations of raising two teen aged boys. My oldest is 18 and the day he turned it he thought he was the total master of his domain. I couldn't believe had given birth to such a creature. He was horrible. Thing are now finally calming down ( I hope). My youngest, 15 years old, has fallen in love. He is on cloud 9 when she is around. It's a little bit scary for me. I'm not ready for grand parenthood. I need both of them to graduate college so they can take care of me! At least that is what I keep telling them. I met a guy on Face book that I went to high school with back in the dark ages. He are ...

My son spends the night with one of his friends. When he comes home he asked me why I don't get up on Saturdays and cook him pancakes and bacon like his friend's mom does. Then the lecture began.... I'm sorry, but I work all day-all week long. I get up every morning at 5:30 and prepare your breakfast, come home and take care of as much laundry and housework that I can while making sure you boys have your homework done and take care of any of school stuff that is due the next day. I have to fix supper (which sometimes is a grilled cheese and can of soup) feed the dog and the cat because no one else will do it. hint hint. That is why i don't get up early on Saturdays and fix pancakes. As a matter of fact, you should be getting up fixing ME pancakes! Oh, he says.

The rain was pouring out of the sky like a giant pitcher of water being poured into a shot glass. Roads were flooded and the little island just below the water fall had disappeared from sight. Tornadoes had been spotted earlier and the weather service warned against being out on the road due to power lines down and low visibility . This was the scene when I discovered my teenager had snuck out in the car. My 16 year old son had asked if he and a friend could go somewhere in the car. I said no and explained the weather situation to him. He had a friend over whose parents had given him the same warning. Stay put they were told. The rain had let up and they asked if they could walk over to another friend's house who lived in the neighborhood. I said that was okay... just do not take a car. They took the car. I decided to call and check on them and let them know it was getting late and I wanted them to come home. (I was sleepy and needed my beauty rest) He told me okay and would ...

I watched the little white car go up the street carrying my most precious cargo. It felt strange seeing those two little heads through the windows nodding and moving past my house. Those little heads used to be so small and round and covered with baby chick fuzz. It's hard to believe that I once held those precious tiny heads in my arms. Eyes that use to look up at me with wonder and surprise were now focused straight ahead on a road that lie before them. How do they do it? How do they grow up so fast right before your eyes? My oldest got a car, he is 16 years old now. This morning he took his brother to school who is 13 years old. I watched them drive off, a little nervous, but I knew they would be fine. It just looked so strange to see them in the front seats of a car with one of them actually driving the car! I wonder if this is how a mama bird feels when her babies fly out of the nest? Silly, I know but I really did feel a weird feeling in my heart, somewhat sad, but somewhat ...