webster's definition: a state of mental or emotional strain or tension resulting from adverse or very demanding circumstances. If you look this up it also includes my name beside it: Michelle "stress" Morgan. I stay stressed out and I don't know why. My doctor told me yesterday that I worry too much which causes stress that leads to depression and anxiety. He suggested I go to church. LOL! Have you ever heard of a doctor telling you to go to church?'s not a bad idea. I am beginning to see the benefits of positive thinking, prayer and meditation. I just have a hard time making the time to do it. Time to go get ready for work before the baby wakes I'm stressing!!!

baby girl

My sweet baby girl.

What happened to all of the pictures?

So I thought I would start this thing back up. I looked at it today and all of the photos are blanked out with a gray box with a white line through it. What's up with that? How do I fix this? Is anyone out there? Beuler...

Depressed Again?

This is ridiculous! I cannot get myself out of the funk. I went to the gym and walked on the treadmill, I sat in the sunlight, I read jokes but nothing is helping. I hate depression. I hate that I have it. I hate the doctor who told me I had it and put me on meds 15 years ago and that now I can't seem to live without them.

balance blah blah

I feel horrible right now. I'm so down on myself. I'm fat, work is stressful, house is dirty, car battery died....I mean what else can happen??? Oh yeah, the cat bit me.

Balance. What does that mean? How do you get it? I can't seem to find it. If I focus in on something to make it better then I ignore everything else. If I focus really hard on work to get ahead then I can't clean my house or want to go do anything with my kids. If I get my house spotless, clothes washed, etc then I am behind on work. I'm depressed. This sucks. Somebody throw me a bone.

signed, not the high wire act

Day 64....

Did not live up to Day 1.

Day 1

Stopped drinking wine. I believe this has become a problem for me not to mention it's not healthy. To make a large statement about it I threw away the bottle of wine that was in the fridge in front of my boyfriend. (he wasn't very impressed).
To take it's place as an evening stress reliever - winedown, I will walk. Not run, not jog, just simply walk and see how far that will take me.
I'm 45 years old and it's time (past time!) for me to begin living healthier. One step at a time. Here's my creed to live by now.....
"Today is the first day of the rest of my life....
Time to get busy living or get busy dying... choice."