Showing posts from February, 2012

Depressed Again?

This is ridiculous! I cannot get myself out of the funk. I went to the gym and walked on the treadmill, I sat in the sunlight, I read jokes but nothing is helping. I hate depression. I hate that I have it. I hate the doctor who told me I had it and put me on meds 15 years ago and that now I can't seem to live without them.

balance blah blah

I feel horrible right now. I'm so down on myself. I'm fat, work is stressful, house is dirty, car battery died....I mean what else can happen??? Oh yeah, the cat bit me.

Balance. What does that mean? How do you get it? I can't seem to find it. If I focus in on something to make it better then I ignore everything else. If I focus really hard on work to get ahead then I can't clean my house or want to go do anything with my kids. If I get my house spotless, clothes washed, etc then I am behind on work. I'm depressed. This sucks. Somebody throw me a bone.

signed, not the high wire act

Day 64....

Did not live up to Day 1.