Sunday, October 5, 2008

Paying Bills equals Dirty House

I hate cleaning my house. There I said it. I also hate cooking, exercising, and skinny people! It's hard to admit those things when you know you are suppose to take pride in some of them, but I just don't want to pretend any longer. When I was a stay at home mom I really loved doing most of those things (not exercise and I was a skinny person). I liked taking care of my house and my children. There was a lot of pride in that job and I was very good at it. Now that I have to work I can't do it all. I use to try but it's no use. I had to let things go around here.

I was recently asked by my boss what my professional career goals were. I had to think really hard because nothing was coming to me! That's when I realized that my heart was with my children and my goals lied within them. I only work to pay bills. If I didn't have to do that I would go back to being a little home maker. This question made me realize how much I missed that time in my life. Of course, reality sets in, I do have to work and I do have to be successful at my job or I'll lose it. Realizing all of that kind of made me sad. Actually it made me alot sad. I don't hate my job what I do is actually pretty fun at times and I'm good at it, but I can't say I am driven by a career goal and I want to move up that corporate ladder. God knows I don't even want to get on that ladder! I just want a job that I am not stressed out all of the time (because I'm staying pretty stressed lately) and that I do look forward to coming into everyday, have fun, affect people in a positive way and make enough money to pay my bills so that I can take care of my children. Is that too much to ask for?
Oh yeah-and a maid to keep my house clean and all of my meals cooked while I'm at work!
Me and My Boys when I was a skinny stay at home mom. We're at the beach in Gulf Shores, AL Aren't they adorable?
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